(RP) For Someone Who Used to Read This

This is for someone who used to read this, at least I thought so.

I couldn’t count how many times I wanted to give up on you. I couldn’t count how many times I wanted to just keep the memories inside my head. I couldn’t count how many times I wanted to say goodbye.

I told you that it’s over and that I could not go on anymore, that I was starting to doubt my feelings for you. I thought it was just an illusion. It has been years – it must have been true love. I told you that it was, but that time, I wasn’t sure. However, I had not a slightest idea that you even cared about it.

There came that time when I became afraid of what would this feelings for you make me in the future. I couldn’t just hope forever, could I?

I told you that I would just return as how it was before when it was not this complicated. I told you that I lost the game that only I created. You never played. I just imagined that you did. In reality, you never did.

I raised my white flag because I couldn’t keep my promise to only look at you, to hold your hand forever and never let go, to only love you. I knew you couldn’t care less about me loving you from afar.

With that, I was very sorry.

I moved on. When I thought I had already done it, I was wrong. For whatever reason, I suddenly missed you. I missed your smile, your tears, your laughter, your cries. I missed the way you treated the people around you with love, concern and respect. I missed the way you made my heart jump whenever I would see you. I missed the times when I regarded you as the reason why I wanted to be alive everyday.

You still are.

I realized it when I saw your photos and all of a sudden, my tears fell. I didn’t know why tears just kept falling continuously as I looked at your photos.

I realized that I was a mess. It was too late. I fell for you deeply that I could not climb my way back to reality. I fell for you so hard that I could not stand and move on with life.

I don’t understand. What is it in you that makes me stay? What is it in you that makes me not turn my back? What is it in you that makes me submerge in pain? What is it in you that makes me fall more and more.

There was only one chance.

Please… slap me back to reality. Tell me that we’re impossible.

Because no matter what, I am still hoping.

(RP) South Korea Trip – At Last, It Happened!

It’s been a really long time.

I made this blog hidden for a good reason. I never write here anymore anyway.

I wanted to at least write something about my trip to Korea last November 5 – 8, same date of Super Junior’s 10th Anniversary. I specifically chose the dates because of that special reason. I told myself that if ever I would go to Korea, I would choose July 1 or November 6. For whatever reason, I felt so attached with Super Junior and I had this hope that I would see the reason why I cried tonight.

Just a quick narration of our family trip in Korea – on the first night, we got lost because of me. We rode a bus and missed the bus stop. We took a cab and the driver was very kind. He really tried to understand us even though he was not familiar in English. I used my little knowledge in speaking and writing in Korean. He was talking to me in Korean and I could understand quite a few sentences. There was a time when we actually and literally went around Gwanghwamun to find the hostel. We lost our ability to comprehend because we were truly hungry so I asked the cab driver to stop. He was still smiling and I was still thinking that he was very nice.

So, we just sat there, contemplating if we would get another hostel but I was reluctant. A kind man who looked like someone familiar helped us on our way to finding our hostel which was, mind you, right in front of where we were sitting.

No, he wasn’t a familiar Korean. This will not become a fan fiction.

He was a Filipino and heaven knew (he also admitted) that he was a singer in the Philippines. He was very familiar though… it’s like I had seen him on TV.

Anyway, we met our Korean host, and she told us that she thought we weren’t coming. She waited for hours. I felt so guilty so I kept on apologizing. She was very nice and accommodating, and the room that we rented was very clean. I would definitely get that again if I return.

So we were very hungry and sleepy. We lost our chance to go to the lantern festival near our place. We also lost our itinerary that I made especially for our stay because I planned not to go with a tourist guide.

As a first timer, we were kind of average to good tourist. Thanks for being into KPOP for almost 7 years. My parents were relying on me and my sister. I was happy that I was able to write and read Hangul and sort of understand Korean so we sort of survived our first official day. We went to Nami Island. Before going there, we got lost because we were not familiar with the subway. Korean subways are like Hong Kong and Singapore subways – they all had a lot of lines and connecting stations. Had we not read Korean words, we would not survive a day without riding a cab and we would really be bankrupt. But subways were good for the budget, especially if our budget was limited to less than 50,000 won for the four of us. We kind of exceeded the limit though because of cabs and buses which was more expensive than the trains. My mom would always get stuck in the entrance and exit because she would double tap the card or the card wouldn’t be read. She would always tap the card wrongly for whatever reason, the subway really hated her but of course, it was the easiest, cheapest and the fastest way – we couldn’t say no to it.

We bought the T-Money card and I loaded it – machines were easy to use.

So to get to our destination, I pre-booked a tour bus, but when we got there, I was informed that we had no reservation. So I confirmed in my email – thanks to the mobile wi-fi speed in Korea, that my reservation was not accepted. Of course, I apologized after fighting with the reservation officer. My father was of course mad because he was usually like that. He would always want everything planned ahead. And it was planned ahead – it wasn’t just executed very well.

So we rode the train again and we were glad to reach our destination after almost two hours. We ate at restaurant near the dock that served Galbi, and there we heard Kyuhyun’s A Million Pieces. I was overjoyed because I had been seeing him in the bus and in the streets and hearing him everywhere. We wanted to try the zipline to Nami Island but still, we were still on a budget. We bought a ticket for the ferry ride and went to Nami Island. Because I was a nature person, I enjoyed singing At Gwanghwamun while walking. We also took a lot of pictures because it was a picture worthy place.

Then we went back as early as possible to go to our next destination – the Han River. I pre-booked the ticket for the cruise and we had no problem except that it rained and it was too damn cold. We were there earlier so we ate at Lotteria before going to the cruise. We bought some chips and I swear, it was the best chips that I’ve ever tasted. I forgot the name though but it was mixture of sweet and cheesy. We sat on the benches while waiting for our turn to ride the cruise while eating and while listening to Taeyeon’s whole album courtesy of the restaurants around.

It was really cold that we decided to enter the waiting area. It was about two hours when we rode the cruise. I liked it, however it was a bit non-enjoyable. My sister and I, despite of the cold weather went out the cruise and some Korean guys took photos with us. They actually told us we’re pretty of course, I knew they were just joking around but the hell, we still said ‘thank you’.

Then we went home. I encountered a very displeasing person on our way home. She wasn’t Korean – that’s a clue. I would not tell the story though.

That night also was Super Junior’s 10th anniversary. I kind of regretted the fact that I wasn’t able to greet them properly so I would say it now: Guys, congratulations on your 10th anniversary! I have been following you for almost seven years and I am so happy that you reached your 10th anniversary despite of all the trials and challenges. I am so happy to breathe the same air as you on your anniversary. Even though, I didn’t tweet that much, I was still happy. Thank you and I love you. Let’s run together more!

Okay it was short and done, but I think I made my point.

Back to the narration. So we prepared for the night only then I realized that I lost my itinerary. I thought that I left it with the good cab driver the night before, so I created a new itinerary – a quite quick itinerary actually, because I barely couldn’t remember anything that I wrote, even the budget that I allotted for the whole trip. All I could remember was that I planned to go to Korean Folk Village the next day and return to watch VIXX Ken’s Cinderella musical in the evening… and of course go to Apgujeong for Kona Beans, then go to Gangnam for the KPOP Star Road – at least alone – but I ended up tagging my sister along with me. I bought her a ticket for Ken’s musical as well. She was lucky enough to get a close seat.

The next day, we went to Korean Folk Village and we got lost again because we rode a bus. On our way, we saw Werther (Kyuhyun’s musical) advertisements. Then we reached Yonsei University – which was, mind you, very elegant, and very beautiful campus.

We were noob in this, sorry, so we took a cab to go to Korean Folk Village. As usual, I was able to book our tickets.

It was raining so it was muddy. I enjoyed seeing the folk village but not as much because my boots had mud. I had to go to the musical later that day but I already looked dirty. I had a confession to make – I couldn’t walk nicely. It would usually happen, even back in the Philippines. The Korean Folk Village was really nice too to be honest. We saw the live actings of actors and we saw how Koreans lived way back before. I was also amused because it had some kiddy rides there.

We ate after and waited for the shuttle back to Suwon. It was almost a forty-five minute ride and I was panicking because we might not be able to go to Ken’s musical. But we made it after getting lost again. The mall in Suwon though was tempting, by the way. It was heaven for me because of the shoes!

So we went to Dongdaemun to go to Chungmu Art Hall. We were an hour earlier so I was thankful enough to hail a cab for my parents. After having a difficult time telling the driver where he would drive my parents to, thanks to my limited and rotten Korean speaking skills, he drove away. I asked our host to see if they were back in the hostel. I actually planned for them to go to Dongdaemun Shopping District, had my sister not watched the musical with me. She wasn’t really interested with Ken and VIXX in general so we were kind of in war especially when it came to VIXX. I was thankful though because she went with me or else I would get so out of place.

I could recognize a lot of Starlights, and I was also about to meet my Starlight friends who would watch the musical, Rein and Cami. I saw them separately though.

I was getting insane because I learned that Leo actually went to the musical to watch Ken on that same day when we watched it. If only I chose to watch the 3pm show, I would not be regretting because Rein and Cami saw him. But still, KEo!

The musical started. I was cursing inside my head while Ken was performing because his voice was out of this world. On the same day, Kyuhyun was having his concert also – I was regretting not to come because the ticket was quickly sold out and my parents didn’t allow me to have one more event.

Cinderella musical was awesome. I actually felt all the emotions, laughed, clapped, gasped and frowned if needed. The set was beautiful, and Cinderella’s and Fairy Godmother’s transformations were priceless. Of course, the other characters did well too. Especially Ken. I swear, I saw him looking at me once (glanced, to be exact) but when I looked back at him he looked away. I might be delusional though, but I hope he was thinking, “Why does a foreigner here? Does she even understand this?” That kind of look. I was actually on the seventh row on the most side of the center. Maybe he saw me, or maybe not, but anyway, the point was his voice was on point. Acting was superb too.

I thought it was the last Cinderella so I chose that one, but then they told everyone that they would be having an encore so my hopes went down for a mini-fanmeeting with Ken after.

Reini, my sister, and I went to the back to wait for Ken. I was able to see him saying bye and thank you to us before he went inside the van. He opened the side window and said goodbye and thanks (or no thanks) to that person who flashed her camera on Ken’s face, I captured a video of him. But then it was my first time to get up close for an idol, but I still kept my distance because idols were also humans who get angry when provoked.

So, it turned out that he was the only celebrity that I saw for the whole trip.

Then we said bye to Cami and Reini while we parted our ways in the subway. My sister and I went to Apgujeong for obviously Kona Beans. In Apgujeong, I saw VIXX’s advertisement for Chained Up, and also a birthday advertisement for Leo.

We followed the direction to Kona Beans and we got lost again. We reached Kona Beans by 11:10 PM KST. And of course, it was already closing. I didn’t know that it would close at 11PM – I thought that it would close at 12am!

So we went there for almost nothing. I gave up because my tummy was aching too much because of hunger.

We just went to sneak if someone was still inside and we saw a beautiful lady wearing white – she was very far so I couldn’t confirm if she was Jungsoo’s mom. Out of nervousness, and out of respect, we decided to not approach her to take a photo with her.

Losing both our hope and our stomach, we went inside a CVS to buy food and when we went out the store, we saw the beautiful woman going out. Weirdly enough, I panicked so I entered the convenience store again. I was so nervous. I didn’t know why but even though I couldn’t confirm, I was still happy to see her. I think she was really Jungsoo’s mom. Ugh, I am so embarrassed for not knowing her. I learned that she was just walking home. My sister told me to follow her, but I told her that we couldn’t because it would not be good. So we decided to stay, take a video of Kona Beans and walked towards it and saw someone near the cafe. We panicked that we almost backed out together. A man went by and thought we were weirdos.

Then a white car – actually we thought that it was Jungsoo – parked beside Kona Beans but after a while, the car went away after some minutes. And upon realizing that almost every car owner had white car, we just shrugged it off.

We went home disappointed and tired and still hungry. We decided to go back there the morning after to take our chances again of seeing someone. We were panicking because the subway might close but we actually get lost again. We successfully went back to Gyeongbokgung though.

So we ate the same restaurant where we ate the first time we got there. It was pretty value for money.

The next day, my stomach was hurting – maybe because I ate a very spicy food after filling my stomach with air. I wasn’t able to enjoy touring the next day, however, everything changed when we went back to Kona Beans. My parents insisted to go with us so they went with us but out of courtesy (and a little bit of shame) we asked them to stay at Apgujeong Station. We assured that we would be going back by 11am for all of us to go to Myeongdong to shop and buy pasalubong for everyone back home.

At last, the coffee shop was open. I was literally feeling sick because of my stomach and maybe because I was so nervous. I breathed in and out before going inside the cafe.

My sister and I video-blogged our way there, but of course it would be embarrassing to put it here.

Anyway, at last! I saw a lot of Super Junior posters, especially Leeteuk’s – actually all Leeteuk! It was heaven. Really. It was Hawaii-themed cafe. Around, you would see fans’ gifts to Super Junior and Leeteuk, congratulatory flowers and rice wreaths in a room. The coffee scent was aromatic. I was beyond happy. But still, we weren’t able to see Leeteuk’s mom – maybe because she was the one we saw the night before.

I ordered a dark chocolate cake and apparently, Jungsoo recommends it. The crew was so cute and I ship her with Jungsoo – apparently.

My stomach was not really cooperating but I still managed to finish the cake. It was so delicious. I don’t normally enjoy dark chocolate, but I can say it was delicious.

I bought a blue Angel Story pillow case, took the sleeve, the paper bag and the tissues from Kona Beans. I was beyond happy even though we weren’t able to see Jungsoo again. The fact that I went there was beyond amazing.

We went back to the station and we all went to Myeongdong to shop and eat.

There we ate the best meal ever, at almost 100,000 won, not bad, we still enjoyed the meal even though my stomach was really hurting so bad! No, I didn’t poop, if you ask. When we shopped, it just disappeared. Friends back in the Philippines had a lot of things that they wanted us to buy so we bought it all in Myeongdong. I completed my VIXX album collection and also Super Junior’s!

Shopping was cut because we needed to go back by four in the afternoon because we still wanted to go to Gyeongbokgung Palace, our last destination after we headed to the airport. We didn’t stay long and bought tickets though, we just took photos from the outside because of the lack of time.

We went back to the hostel and then after two hours, we went to the airport to wait for our flight.

I think… the thing that I would miss is the people who tried their best to understand you even though you cannot understand them that much. They helped us whenever we got lost.

Second was the food – especially those chips, and that legit Korean meal.

Third – fangirling stuff. I would definitely go back for that.

Fourth – weather. Yes, it was cold, but it was a good kind of cold that made our skin look younger.

I was so happy and when I got home, I wanted to go back again.

I would definitely go back again… next time with friends to fan girl.

July? November?

I choose both.

Oops, there. I thought I could narrate it in a shorter way, but I guess not. I missed a lot of places to go to but we would surely go back again.

Super Junior – Don’t Wake Me Up + Devil Performance Video (MNet M! Countdown Comeback)

Preview: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qI5SD_Gf8A4

Up Next: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KbvPB8yr9hc

Don’t Wake Me Up (Super Junior D&E): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdqP2OHJDiI

Devil: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jc3XI_n_4i8

Super Junior – Special Album – Devil – Music Video + Streaming + Download Sites

Super Junior’s Special Album for their 10th Anniversary, Devil, has been released today!

Followed its first appearance through Super Show 6 Encore last July 11 and 12, Super Junior also participated in a press conference and a showcase that happened yesterday, July 15, where they revealed their thoughts about the album and the songs in it, the music video and promotions.

Today, SM Entertainment released the music video in Yin Yue Tai and Naver at 12:00am KST, and after an hour, the music video was also released in their official Youtube account.

Check out the music video below:
YouTube*https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOwERHxXcTs

*Only watch the OFFICIAL music video in YouTube so that we can help the boys to win in music shows.

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Devil debuted in no. 4 in MelOn!

Please login using your ID’s to stream and download in the following music sites. This will help them go up the charts!

MelOn: http://www.melon.com/album/detail.htm?albumId=2329647

Mnet: http://www.mnet.com/album/472672

Naver: http://music.naver.com/album/index.nhn?albumId=560742

Soribada: http://www.soribada.com/music/album/KA0078723

Olleh: http://www.ollehmusic.com/#/AlbumDetail/f_Album_info.asp?album_id=80634389

Bugs: http://music.bugs.co.kr/album/518248

Monkey3: http://www.monkey3.co.kr/#/etc.album&albumID=309249

Super Junior – 10th Year Anniversary Special Album – Devil – Info + Music Video Teaser + Teaser Photos

Good news for all ELF like me! Super Junior is coming back with “Devil”.

To celebrate their tenth year anniversary on November, Super Junior will be coming back with a special album as a gift for all ELF all over the world.

On the 8th of July, they dropped a bomb by releasing the 3-minute long official trailer and the teaser photos of individual members. On July 11, they released the second official music video teaser. It is said that they will also reveal the new songs during SS6 Seoul Encore Day 1 and 2, July 11 and 12.

Because this is a special album, it has been confirmed that they have collaborated with top Korean artists such as Lee Seunghwan, Jaurim’s Kim Yoona, Rose Motel and Epitone Project for the songs included in the album. More information may be found here. Moreover, rumor has it that they will be releasing tracks from all their sub-units to celebrate their existence in the KPOP industry.

All songs will be released on July 16, 12:00AM KST in different music and video platforms such as MelOn, Bugs, Olleh, Mnet and Soribada. The music video will be released on SMTown’s official YouTube channel. Be sure to support the boys by streaming the songs and watching the music videos on the mentioned platforms.

Click the links to see the teaser photos and music video teasers for “Devil”. Please watch them only in the official channel to increase the views!

TEASER 1 – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mY7jUaWJOok

TEASER 2 – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtfjKhFKqZc

PHOTO TEASERS 1 – http://sup3rjunior.com/2015/07/08/150708-official-super-junior-special-album-devil-teaser-photos-10p/

PHOTO TEASERS 2 – http://www.soompi.com/2015/07/08/super-junior-releases-new-colorful-teaser-images-for-devil/

The group will be performing live in KBS Music Bank on July 17, MBC Music Core on July 18 and SBS Inkigayo on July 19. Other schedules will be released soon.

Credits: Soompi, KPOPStarz, SMTown Official YouTube Channel, sup3rjunior

(MOD POST) Happy Day Leeteuk!

Only an hour left and I hope it is not yet too late… Actually I am already late, but it is still 11pm in my country! LMAO

Also, this isn’t a short message so if you have something else to do… especially if it is urgent and important, skip this blog post. This is literally very long message to the birthday man, my most favorite man on earth.

Dear Jungsoo,

How are you? It’s been a long time since I last wrote you a message like this. As far as I could remember, last year, I wrote a very short message to you… that was because you still weren’t out yet from the army… or you are, but not officially. Anyway, I just want to greet you a happy happy birthday and even though it’s already late, I hope you were able to celebrate your birthday this year well.

To be honest, I really have a lot of things I wanted to say to you because you are already out from the army and there is a chance, although it’s just a small chance, that you will be able to read my message to you. Actually, I cannot begin it. Shall I start with the wishes? The apologies? The promises? The commitments?

I am very much aware that this is only the sixth year of me celebrating your birthday this grand… I remember, my first birthday blog post was for Heechul’s, so I skipped yours, although I already knew Super Junior a year before. So… that makes it seven years total of loving the best leader, the leader of Super Junior.

I don’t know why I am still holding on though, even though for several times, I’ve attempted to stop and let go. I wasn’t able to. I was, I think, very emotionally attached to Super Junior and most especially to you, Leeteuk. For almost seven years, I’ve become a Teuk-biased ELF and until now, although it’s a bit seldom, I am still a Teuk-biased. It is not a secret, however, that I am slowly… slowly drifting away from the group. I find it very interesting that the reason why I am still an ELF is because of you. Probably, I’ve changed a lot, and I’ve changed as an ELF and as a Teuk-biased ELF. I rarely follow everything Super Junior, though I am still aware of the activities, just not like before. But everytime I see you, I say to myself, “Oh, I remember that time when I am still as active as others… I remember spazzing about everything that you do… I remember disliking your inconsiderate actions… I remember being delusional about your ‘replies’ to my blog.” Everything just returns everytime I see you so I am very thankful.

There is really something about you that makes me react dfferently. I still have that excitement, nervousness and happiness whenever I see your photos, videos, tweets, posts, and most especially your TV appearances. Your presence makes me fall in love with you over and over again. I still don’t know if it’s the same love that I will experience in real-life because no matter how much I think I do, I am still taken aback by the fact that you are an artist, albeit from another country, and I am just one of your million fans who patiently waits for you to notice. It is painful, but as I said before, I think it’s a part of being your fan. Being in love with your character as Leeteuk. That insecurity makes me sad, but I never regret anything. From knowing you to becoming your fan, from randomly watching you in Youtube to seeing your concerts… All of them, I cherish and I never regret.

Probably the only thing that I regret the most is not seeing you last time when I have the chance to see you. To be honest, I cried non-stop for five days straight, pleading and begging to my parents for them to let me watch you. It is still hurtful and I am still disappointed with myself for not seeing you. I know that it is my one and only chance and it sucks. But then I… I decided on my own, to book a trip to Korea to see you. It is my main reason. The others are just secondary reasons but I keep on repeating and emphasizing that I want to go to Korea because I really want to see you. If it is fated for me to meet you, even if there is only a minimal possibility, the chances are, we would meet again. So I booked a flight to Korea tomorrow, July 2.

However, another unfortunate thing happened. After passing my visa requirements and getting the visa itself, after planning my itinerary and booking everything, a news spread that MERS become a threat to my visit. I thought, “Why does God not let me go to Korea?” I feel bad. Very bad that I keep on searching for MERS news until today. Supposedly, tomorrow is my flight so that I can celebrate your birthday, but… I am an obedient daughter. Even if I want to go, I rebooked my flight.

But of course, I am happy that I was able to schedule my flight on November 5-8! Yes, I can go to Super Junior’s 10th Anniversary party, if there is! I think it is a hidden blessing, because my main agenda is to see you and make me relive the past of really getting into you…

I know, I have a lot of promises that I broke… I am deeply sorry for that. I am also sorry for being missing in action about SuJu, but I want to tell you that even if I am very busy, I still keep myself updated about you. Seeing the members, and of course, you, make me stay stronger and happier, so I am thankful for that.

I am also thankful that for all these years, you never gave up and you let Super Junior shine. Thank you for being a very awesome and dedicated leader that your members love you very much. Thank you for being stronger everyday.

Jungsoo, I really want to see you. I really do, so I will do my best to see you.

I promise.

I also promise that no matter what happens, even if other groups come in my way, I will still see you as my number one.

My wish is for you to have good health, more growth in terms of career as singer, emcee, host and artist. I also wish for your family and friend’s prosperity. I also wish for you to marry a woman who would really take care of you, see you only, and love you forever without excuses. Lastly, I wish that Super Junior would remain forever.

Again, thank you so much, sorry and I love you.

Love,

immortalsoul123 (Ana)

P.S. Here is my gift for you because you will always be my angel.

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SUPER JUNIOR COMEBACK FIGHTING!

I LOVE YOU JUNGSOO! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU INFINITY TIMES!

Donghae and Eunhyuk – Growing Pains Music Video

Growing Pains Music Video is out! Super Junior sub-unit D&E composed of Donghae and Eunhyuk releases their first Korean album today, March 6, 2015! In the meantime, let us watch the music video while streaming in MelOn and other Korean streaming sites!

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zs2NibgZgR4

I PERSONALLY LOVE THIS SONG. SERIOUSLY. THE MV TOO.

(RP) I Still Want To Be…

Long time no post.

I told myself that I wouldn’t post any RP’s anymore but I can’t help it.

…I am imagining myself becoming a wife and mother to my future family.

It sucks… I imagine that person as my husband. That we would have three kids. One of them would be a girl and the two would be boys. Keo Marcus and Christian Hamish would be the name of the boys and for our daughter, it would be Amary Gae… I imagine a wonderful life with him.

But I know it can’t happen.

I don’t deserve someone like him. Nor he deserves someone like me. I know, I am not like the person he likes. I am not the person he would like. I can’t fall in love again with the person who can’t be mine.

I want to give it a try but… I am afraid to get hurt. I would rather get hurt now that it’s still unclear. I am the type of person who hopes and dreams so bad that I tend to misunderstand.

I think I am special but I know that I am just another girl who has feelings for him.

As much as my bestfriend tells me to stop building a wall and close my heart for possibilities, I would still do it because I don’t want to get hurt.

I want to get asked for a date. I want someone to care for me and look only at me. I want someone to tell me the words I need to hear. I want someone who would spend his days with me. I want someone to propose to me and to ask me for marriage.

Someday…

But I know it wouldn’t be him.