The reason why I understand Jungsoo is that I do not want people to be burdened with my pain. I would rather be hurt than see someone else to suffer indirectly because of me. At the same time, And I do not want people to seem to care but after sometime they won’t.
This is why I cannot tell anyone my problems. I tend to burst alone – I’d rather cry alone than to receive false concern.
Because no matter how I put it, I do not think anyone puts me as his first. His priority.
I have no one to share this with.
And there will come a time when I won’t understand myself either, because I am usually conflicted.
I wish I could be firm and strong.